My sensei sent this e.e. cummings quote to me...
"To be nobody but yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you like everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight - and never stop fighting."
A fight, a dance, a journey, a pilgrimage. It's never a fight against anyone or anything. It is a fight for what is good, what is whole. And, sometimes, it's a fight for someone.
Whatever you want to call this, I am for, never against. And even as I rest, I am ready to soldier on, walk the path of the pilgrimage.
It is a shame my sensei and I can't fight together. But, in a roundabout way, maybe we are.