The pulses, the vibrations, scare and delight me. Their intensity sometimes scares me in their power. But the way they dance in me is extraordinary.

 

I can't flip them off like a light switch. I can't predict their timing of them. Or their intensity. I'll go stretches without anything, and I don't worry. And then, minutes of waves rippling through me. And though it's scary, I don't worry.

I know it is dangerous to discuss this. All sorts of assumptions could be made about me. And they'd be wrong. But I can't make any sense of this, either. It's weird. It's something I've never experienced before in my life. I've been allowing them to just be.

What is my body trying to tell me? Or is my soul trying to say something to me?