The sincerity and determination in my voice matches the sincerity and determination in my eyes. My blog and my podcast are representative of who I am. They are not separate from me. As you'll hear, I'm alone because I don't want to play the game men and women usually play. The game is beneath me.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Feeling chippy
The sincerity and determination in my voice matches the sincerity and determination in my eyes. My blog and my podcast are representative of who I am. They are not separate from me. As you'll hear, I'm alone because I don't want to play the game men and women usually play. The game is beneath me.
Sparkler
“A single spark of passion can change a man forever”
Thank you, my sensei, for your spark.
Namaste
Soil samples
Namaste
Emergence
Distant thunder pierces the man-made noise
Water from the sky falls in large drops
Bringing nourishment from the heavens
I sit back and close my eyes
Returning to my second home
The rain here dances to the same rhythm
Beating its moves into the waiting, fertile ground
It brings me to the same soothing state of mind
Remind of what is here
And what is possible
Namaste
Shy guy
It just means I'm watching a little more closely, that's all.
Being present.
Namaste
The real apprentice
And now, an apprenticeship.
I'm not changing the rules of the game, only the description.
Apprentices become craftsmen. And a craftsman never stops honing his craft.
I want my craft to be life. And all that it entails.
Namaste.
(This post was inspired--partly--by Neil Peart, the drummer for the band Rush. On his website, it's noted that he is a work in progress, and that he is engaging in the "endless apprenticeship of drumming." Yep.)
The tao of shirt washing
I have a shirt that I can't toss in the washing machine. I have to take it into the bathroom sink and wash it by hand. Rubbing it in the hot water, I look in the mirror. And going beneath the surface, I see...what's good, what's whole, what's capable, what's...complete. What's there.
What have I learned this month?
I have been present. (Not that I haven't been all along) No, it's not a hard thing to see. I simply know my feelings.
The thing I want, and can't have--that love I have discussed before--is present. I have not grasped, clung, hung on, gripped to it. No arrogance, no illusions, no delusions. No misplaced, misguided romance. It simply is. I have allowed it to be.
I am here. I am present. I am. With everything that is inside of me.
So, we will see what June has in store.
Namaste
Friday, May 30, 2008
Conversation
So this afternoon's nap was, well, interesting. Because of the dream I had. No, not of the same vein as the one a couple of weeks ago.
It was a conversation with someone. Someone I know very well, as they know me. It was a shock to see them there.
As I said--interesting.
"Remember not only to say the right thing in the right place, but far more difficult still, to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment."
Benjamin Franklin
I've always believed in discretion being the better part of valor. Shyness and humility have their advantages.
Namaste
In the forest
Many different kinds of trees.
Just like there are many different kinds of passion.
Nature loves variety.
Namaste.
Always for
"To be nobody but yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you like everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight - and never stop fighting."
A fight, a dance, a journey, a pilgrimage. It's never a fight against anyone or anything. It is a fight for what is good, what is whole. And, sometimes, it's a fight for someone.
Whatever you want to call this, I am for, never against. And even as I rest, I am ready to soldier on, walk the path of the pilgrimage.
It is a shame my sensei and I can't fight together. But, in a roundabout way, maybe we are.
Namaste
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Live with/live without
A house (The concept of a modular house is intriguing)
A truck (But with gas prices where they are, this might be wiser.)
A career where I can work from that house when I want.
I'm flexible, though. A townhouse would suffice, and a smaller car would do the job. (Please note that flexibility does not equal weakness.)
But I would trade all of these for the goal of having someone to love. It's the intangibility of giving my heart and soul to another that would have me give up everything right now.
I can buy a car. I can't buy love.
Namaste
On vacation?
I haven't written much in awhile. Not because I have run out of steam
or energy. I still have an abundance of both.
And it's not because I don't have anything to say. I have plenty to say.
I'm at a different peace, a different place. A place where my heart
shouldn't be, but it is. A place not in convention, stereotype or limit.
My heart, my soul and my spirit continue to flow like a mighty river.
Their power nourishes me. I feel that power literally at every moment.
I just want that power to nourish the heart, the soul, the spirit of
another.
Namaste
Same as it ever was
I wake up this morning at 100%. Not that I haven't every morning, but now, moreso. Never at any point in my life have my heart, soul and spirit been as supple and as steadfast.
I feel good about how I feel and what I can do. As always.
Namaste
TFTD
- Orison Swett Marden
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I think back to today, and its beautiful azure skies and fresh, clean air.
My heart, my soul, my spirit, all move in the air, yet remain still and calm.
They marvel at the unbelievable state in which they reside. They play a very dangerous game of being in a place where they shouldn't be, don't belong. They give so much more than they receive. But they play there, knowing this place is where they belong, where they truly are.
Namaste, and goodnight.
TFTD
~Carlos Castaneda
(This has been hard for me to do--stop the dialogue, but it's possible. I like Castaneda because he is a radical optimist. Namaste)
TFTD
Deepak Chopra
Stillness
What's there? What's here?
Everything that has been there before. Everything is still there. Still here.
The heart, the soul, the spirit.
The feelings.
The pulses.
Namaste
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
TFTD//hacking away
TFTD
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, Jesuit priest (1881-1955)
A different place, is where I am.
Namaste
(hat tip)
Opposites attract
Namaste
I'm only human
He gave everything he had. The least I can do is give some, too.
Namaste
Another measure of a man
Here is a good takeout....
Consequently, it is nearly always the case that little more is expected of a man than that he has good looks, a good wardrobe, a good job, some or all of the most fashionable material goods, and that he is a good provider, a good sex partner, a good fighter, or just able to show a woman a good time. It is long after a man has been judged on the basis of such 'cryteria' that serious consideration -- usually, too little too late -- is given to whether his inner person is as good as his public image.
Let me be a little less humble here--I am more than my public image. I want the people I am with, and the woman I am with, to experience the deeper, richer, more soulful me. I want to exceed the expectations which seem so little, so useless, to me. I am so much more than what you see on the surface. The last thing in the world I'm going to do is hide that away. I want it to bloom like those cherry trees.
But all the time. Not just in the spring.
Namaste.
Renewal
To wear, to live, to be, all the hats and all the textures that are me. To be everything that I am and to be everything I can be.
Namaste.
Not a suspect
I have so much to offer to a woman--love, support, nourishment. I can't give it the way I so want to, so this is the place where I have to give. Suspect or not.
Namaste.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Men don't cry
My sensei, I'm not obstinate. I just am, just present. I feel what I feel in my heart, and I flow with it. Just like you.
Society doesn't think that men are, or should be sensitive to feelings, matters of the heart. But I am.
My sensei, I lashed out when I felt my heart was under attack. As I've said, it is the most precious thing I have. I can't give a woman anything more precious than that. All my heart wants to do is give itself. It hurts when it can't.
Namaste
Spontaneity
My soul took in the stillness. Drank in the nourishment, the fortification.
If the pulses are any indication, as I am now, I remain ready, willing and able.
Namaste
The art of light
There is one art I want no part of. I want nothing to do with the dark art of bullshitting a woman. It's not good for me, and it's not good for her.
Namaste.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Misnomer
TFTD
Shantideva
Namaste
Saturday, May 24, 2008
A tall order?
I want to be enraptured by the soul of a woman, too.
Namaste
Morning light
Namaste
Friday, May 23, 2008
Simple words
If words are the only thing that is asked of me.
If words are the only thing sought of me.
If words are all I can give.
They will be the best words I can give.
Namaste
Let the rain fall
When the rain falls from the sky, we duck under hoods and umbrellas, dodging the drops. Little do we realize that the gray manna from the heavens actually showers the earth, and us, with nourishment.
For the mother of a friend, there is an uncertain deluge falling. A mass was found in her lung. A biopsy will be done Tuesday. My friend has asked for her friends to pray for her mom and her. And that I will do. It's the least I can do.
No one ever wants a rain like this. This can, and does, bring anyone to their knees. Asking God why me. Why her.
Even in the middle of the rainstorm, God, or whatever force you believe in, will nourish you, not drown you.
Namaste
Thursday, May 22, 2008
First light
Solitude my guide
--Sarah MacLachlan, Possession
The morning has become my companion. I used to be a night person, able to stay up late and sleep in. And while I write a lot in the morning now, I'm not only a morning person. The whole night/morning thing is a false construct, for me at least. The energy I have stretches through the day. I'm flexible for day or night.
But the greatest insights I have into myself seem to come as the first light breaks the horizon.
Plus ca change, plus ca meme chose
All the while, the core of me, my heart, my soul, my spirit, my love, my passion, remains the same.
As steadfast as ever. As supple as ever.
Namaste
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Unpredictable power
Those pulses? At certain points, they are quiet, still. Like the early morning.
Like right now.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
The pilgrimage
I discovered Paris and Brussels by avoiding the museums and the tourist traps and walking unknown paths, unknown streets. I found two wonderful, beautiful cities full of character and life
The journey I find myself on now is full of unknown streets, surprises around every corner. The surprises are scary sometimes. But it's better than the standard, boring museum tour.
Thank you for the pilgrimage.
Namaste.
Clear as a bell
Can I see? I mean, really see? What's inside me? What's outside of me? All of it?
I see as clearly as I have ever seen in my life.
Namaste
Greeting the morning
Most nights, I don't sleep eight hours. I'm lucky if I get six. What usually happens is I wake up about 5 or so, and just lie in bed, half asleep. It is the one part of the day where I can truly just be. The dawning light and the silence (save the chirping of the birds) does something good to me.
I go into this place of comfort, peace. I'm just there, not searching, not seeking, not longing, not wanting. I am open. Now, let me make clear--I am human. Blessedly so. And the searching, the seeking, the longing, the wanting do come. I allow them to do as they wish. The comfort, the peace, the state of...bliss...always return. It's a gauzy, warm reverie. It is the warm, sensous embrace of some invisible force, as I described earlier today.
I usually lie in bed, eyes closed, drifting in and out, a smile on my face.
I am just there.
Then I get up and write.
Namaste.
And now for something completely different
Never a time
There has never been a time in my life like this.
Where I have sacrificed so much of myself, not cared, and would sacrifice more.
Where normally I would have walked away from the whole thing, washed my hands of the whole thing. But something inexplicable, something intoxicating, keeps me traveling down a mysterious path.
Where every word, gesture, intention I give is to support, nourish, comfort, raise an eyebrow--in a situation where my heart was broken.
Where I refuse to wallow, or be less, but where I grow, evolve, become more.
Where I give my best at any moment.
Really.
There has never been a time like this.
Namaste
Like a rock
The warrior of the light has the qualities of a rock.
When he is on flat terrain - when all around has found harmony - he remains stable. People may build houses upon that which he created, because the storm will not be destructive.
When, however, he is placed on uneven terrain - and things around him do not show any respect or equilibrium for his work - he reveals his strength, rolling towards the enemy which threatens peace. At such times, the warrior is devastating, and no one can detain him.
A warrior of the light thinks of war and peace at the same time, and knows how to act according to the circumstances.
Really, I'm not.
I'm a guy who has a full, abundant, bountiful heart of love, caring, spirit that he wants to share. That's all that's at the core of who I am, and who I want to be.
Those colors and textures help make me who I am. And so does my heart.
Namaste
Out of the blue
A question asked
An answer unexpected
Questions are borne from curiosity
They must be asked
Answers slake the thirst of the curious
Details vague, details specific
The author trusts the reader
To paint words in the mind
The author respects the reader
Monday, May 19, 2008
Long way round
And, my, what a small rediscovery I found hustling down the road.
It wasn't anything major. Just a feeling of calmness, peace, playfulness, light, naturalness--with a dash of mischievousness--that had been a corner, collecting a bit of dust.
Ah, but it's out of the corner now. I think that this morning's dream had a lot to do with it.
(If you could see the devilish grin on my face now...)
Namaste
TFTD
Intensity
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Interesting thought....
-I-ch’ing
Just for kicks
Your Mind is Purple |
Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself. |
Descriptors
Still waters run very deep
Cool intensity
Renewed
I have never been so scared of a journey as I am right now.
I moved away from home in my mid-twenties to start my career in the big city. I remember driving the U-Haul truck, with most of everything I own in the back, up Interstate 95 in the darkness of a Sunday night.
I moved overseas, to a country I'd never been to. I remember looking back over my shoulder at the New York skyline. I remember getting off the plane in Brussels into this strange new world.
Neither scared me as much as the journey I am on now. Neither has moved me to the tears I shed now like this.
As scared I am, I still possess courage, energy and strength. I am not standing still.
After a night of dreams and slumber, the journey is renewed at the first light of day. And with it, I am renewed.
Namaste
Wisdom
I don't know what you're doing, but keep doing it.
Ok then, I will.
Namaste
Quiet heart
I fell back to sleep this morning, after writing a couple of entries. I felt such wonderful lightness, such a feeling of love, such a feeling of aliveness.
In other words, the same as it ever was.
There are times when I feel a little melancholy, a little sad. That's fine. I'm not a robot. I can't be content, happy and calm all the time. I'm human. I have a full range of emotions and I experience varying degrees of all of them.
But, like those Weebles, I return to the center, to balance. My heart, my soul, spirit contain love, and will give love.
My big three can't give less than that.
It's in these moments of peace and stillness (which is often) I feel I can be everything.
Namaste.
Sleep comes like a drug...
Desert sky
Dream beneath a desert sky
The rivers run but soon run dry
We need new dreams tonight
Desert rose
Dreamed I saw a desert rose
Dress torn in ribbons and in bows
Like a siren she calls to me
Sleep comes like a drug
In God's Country
Sad eyes, crooked crosses
In God's Country
Set me alight
We'll punch a hole right through the night
Everyday the dreamers die
See what's on the other side
She is liberty
And she comes to rescue me
Hope, faith, her vanity
The greatest gift is gold
Sleep comes like a drug
In God's Country
Sad eyes crooked crosses
In God's Country
Naked flame
She stands with a naked flame
I stand with the sons of Cain
Burned by the fire of love
Burned by the fire of love
hat tip for the lyrics here
Housekeeping
I've ginned up a StumbleUpon page, as a companion to my tumblelog. Some links will be the same, but there may be a surprise or two.
Just a part of the constant evolution. Like the universe expanding outward.
Namaste
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
No allusions/no illusions
Namaste
``I've had everything I ever wanted in life. I've stood on the top of the mountain,'' he told the court. But now, ``the gold medal, all those people cheering, that was part of another world. ... In jail, my status is gone.''
No, Tim Montgomery, it was, and never has been, about status.
It is, and will continue to be, about nourishing and nurturing each other.
Resistance
Yes, my sensei, I was resisting a part of you. But I never resist the parts of you that truly matter.
Namaste
The drive
A different place
Continue to just be.
Namaste
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I have a lot of nourishment to give. I give it out because I want to receive nourishment. I want my spiritual roots to grow deep and strong. I want my partner's spiritual roots to grow deep and strong.
That growth, that learning, that exploring, never ends.
It expands like the roots of a mighty oak. It expands like the universe.
Namaste
Animal kingdom
Here's a great takeaway...
When we give without assumptions, something special happens. We discover that we’re not giving in order to appease our own judgments, but that we are giving simply to GIVE. This is true compassion, and giving in this way is always a joyful thing. Nothing taints the purity of our giving.
This is most important when it comes to our relationship with ourselves. In our constant striving to make our lives better, we rarely stop to appreciate where we are. This simple skill is lost to us, and in this way we guarantee that no matter what we achieve, we will always be filled with desire for more.
It is fine to strive for more, but if we do it believing that our life will be better once we get what we want, then we’ll be trapping ourselves in an endless cycle. Let us see clearly enough to recognize that our joy is right here, right now, no matter what our circumstances. We may have just gotten a wonderful new job, just been diagnosed with terminal cancer, or be sitting down to a bowl of oatmeal in the morning. In each of these moments we are free to experience life, or to push life aside in a constant effort to make things better.
Right now. Right now. Right now.I love where I am right now. You are correct, I don't have what I am...striving for. But, in this moment, and in every moment I've felt this week, I am. I simply am. Right now. At every moment, I enjoy where I am.
And this also sort of speaks to completeness. What I desire and strive for isn't tangible. It never has been. I want spiritual depth and growth.
Namaste
TFTD
The future belongs to God
and he will reveal it only in extraordinary circumstances.
(The Alchemist)
Thank you, kind sir.
Namaste
Namaste
Dear diary
I see all things I am, and all the things I want to be. I am a lot. I want to be a lot.
And, even in stillness, I feel peace. I feel...the same.
Plus la meme chose.
Namaste
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Don't look
-Lama Thubten Yeshe, "Introduction to Tantra"
I can just be, be still, not see.
And see everything in me and before me.
Namaste.
Weeble-wobble
But I'm not feeling that.
I don't have what I want. My heart does long for the love of another, yes.
Still.
I feel as good as I have ever felt. Because I can give a woman the nourishing spirit of my soul. Anytime this week I have consciously tried to be less than that, I always come back to the nourishment I have inside.
Like one of those Weebles, those egg-shaped toys that you pushed and pushed, and dropped onto the floor as a kid, and they always returned to center. (Weebles wobble but won't fall down.)
I return to center. My center is my heart.
My heart is as unfettered as it has ever been. As I've said, it is the most precious thing I have. I can't give a woman anything more precious than that.
Namaste
Curious
TFTD
The Dalai Lama
Nope
I realized yesterday, again, how ingrained all of this is in me. I have much to give.
Namaste
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Stillness
Sameness
Nothing has changed.
Namaste
Monday, May 12, 2008
Bringing light
Lightworking is a very challenging path. You can’t stumble into it by accident. It must be chosen consciously. Every day you must renew your commitment to raising consciousness instead of lowering it. Lightworking isn’t a perfect path. There will be plenty of obstacles, mistakes, and setbacks. What makes you a lightworker isn’t some external measure of success. What makes you a lightworker is your inner recognition that you have a choice to make and that you’re choosing this particular path deliberately, including its potential hardships.
Not in the usual places
The places where I would be sad, angry, in despair. Or where I should be docile, quiet.
I am not there.
Where I am is very simple. I am in the realm of possibility, potential. Beyond limits, stereotypes. I am where I know and feel I can be. All of the things that make me, me, and all of the things I can be for someone.
Through these months, that has not changed.
Humbly, namaste.
Earth-bound
As if
There's a riot goin' on
Forty years ago, France was in the throes of a revolution that changed the nation. I won't go into all the details. But I love this quote.
Be realistic: Demand the impossible!
Vive la revolution.
Bienvenue ma revolution.
Dreams
Mind vs. body
What I am experiencing now is like a drug. Any feelings of sadness, despair, anger, are overtaken by joy, light, spirit, heart.
The core of me knows what it possess, and knows all of what it can give. And it will continue to give it on this roller coaster, this unknown road.
Namaste.
Core strength
Namaste.
Chaser
Just as this sensei is chasing his.
Maybe one day our paths will meet. Maybe they are meeting now.
Namaste.
No worries
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Words
Namaste
It's simple, really
Namaste
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Peace
What flows is love, heart, soul, spirit, passion.
What flows out (and wants to flow to someone) is love, heart, soul, spirit, passion.
The inner peace comes from wanting to have these flow in the heart of someone special.
The inner peace comes from my living all that I possess at every moment.
Namaste
Thoughts
Seven months ago, my heart was broken. A vital part of me died then.
But. In the words of poker player Amir Vahidi, in order to live, you have to die.
Seven months ago, I died. Because of that, I live fully now.
I got something I never intended. I gave something I never intended.
I cry as I write these words. They are powerful to me.
I sacrificed my heart back then. I thrive with that stronger heart now. My heart was strong before it was broken. But that strength pales in comparison to what is there now. I can't go backward, though it is asked of me. Just like you, I can't betray my heart. I can't scorn its strength now. There lies incredible strength, beauty, feeling, spirit that I will allow to flow freely inside and outside of me. I won't turn my back on me, just as you won't turn your back on you.
There is no bitterness, no sadness, no anger in my words, my feelings. My words are just present.
Namaste
T-shirt philosophies
The essence of love is acceptance, compassion, and forgiveness. Love is a gift
that must be given to yourself before you can share it with others. Pure love
manifests itself as a deep and unwavering sense of inner peace.
Strength extends beyond the bonds of the physical. True strength comes from within and is limitless in its power to support, heal and uplift you. Your will is directly linked to this infinite source of inner strength. Tap into this source and through sheer determination you will be able overcome even the most challenging obstacles.
When you Believe in something, you set into motion the infinite power of creation. Your beliefs direct and focus this incredible power, enabling you to create the life that you want to live. What you believe, you perceive!
'I bow to you.' An honoring of the divine in another while recognizing the divine within. The Namaste gesture represents a communication between yourself and another at the soul level, going deeper than personality and ego to connect through your heart or center of your being.
The joy of no
I am a friend, a lover, a confidante, a philosopher, a writer, a carer, a giver, a protector, a seeker, a finder, a sensei, a journeyer. All of these, and more I just can't think of right now.
My heart courses with all of these parts that make me who I am, and make me who I am for someone else.
With a warm smile on my face,
Namaste.
A trinity
Though I want to be there.
But I still feel the feelings deep in me.
Hearing this song yesterday, and listening to it in my head, you'd think it set me off, push over the edge, given my current state. But no. This is one of my favorite Bonnie Raitt songs. It's one of the songs I'd make love to a woman with. It's one of the songs I'd cradle a woman in my arms with. Far from being sad, it makes me feel good. The same depth of emotion in the song is the same depth of emotion I feel when I think about what I can give. Opposite thoughts between Ms. Raitt and me? Yes. But our pools of emotion and passion are just as deep and rich.
Namaste
Hanger
I'm hanging on to the stronger heart in me now.
That's why I still care, and send greetings. It all, heart, love, spirit, soul, still flows in and out me.
Namaste.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Pop the bubble
Negative into positive
It regenerates the positive flow. That's why I refuse (yes, refuse) to be down. Why I continue to give more.
Namaste
Where I am
It's the opposite.
I feel more capable, more able, more willing to be the man a woman wants. I wobbled, yes, but the experience made me stronger. The broken heart I had is replaced by the stronger heart I possess.
It's simple--after a fashion. I have refused to be less. I continued to be what I was and what I am--as good as I can be.
It could have been easy to slip into stereotypes, and stupid behavior. I choose to be everything I could be. I want to be everything I can.
Feeling the piece of my life that is missing, yes. But feeling strongly, powerfully, the good, warm, wonderful feelings of what I possess, and can give.
I am grateful to be in the place I stand in. I am thankful for the space I inhabit.
Sleep/still
Other than the dreaming, I am still. I can let things settle.
When I wake up, I check to see how I feel, if the thoughts and feelings are different from the night before. If my mind has changed about the quest.
It doesn't. It remains as it is.
I have never been in this place, this space, before. I would have walked away from this long ago. I always did. Yet, the river in me flows to places and destinations known, and unknown. I trust the waters to carry me, not drown me. The waters will nourish me. I trust the waters.
Namaste.
Feeding time
There is a river deep in me, a river of something I can't put a name on, that feeds my heart and my soul.
It runs strong. I flow with it.
Namaste
Gray skies
Namaste
TFTD
It can be tiring sometimes, but I do this. And it's wonderful.
Not anymore
And I am grateful that it is gone.
Namaste.
This is why
I want to be attached to ideas, people (yes), heart, soul, spirit.
I push things out I don't want to make room for the heart, soul, spirit I seek.
Water works
The warrior of the light sometimes behaves like water, flowing around the many obstacles he encounters.
At certain times, resistance means to be destroyed. At such times, he adapts to circumstances. He accepts, without complaint, that the rocks along the way forge his path down the mountains.
Such is the force of water: it can never be broken by a hammer, or wounded by a knife. The most powerful sword in the world is incapable of leaving a scar on its surface.
The water of a river adapts to the path which is possible, without forgetting its objective: the sea. Fragile at its spring, it gradually acquires the strength of the other rivers it encounters.
And, after a while, its power is absolute.
Namaste
Nocturnal nourishment
It soothed a soul already soothed. The rain that falls now washes my soul clean. I am grateful for this moment of grace.
Namaste
TFTD/forever young
Red Rodney
(Almost) a year
Tens of thousands of words.
Hours at a keyboard.
Smiles smiled. Tears shed.
I've been blogging for nearly a year, and I've been through many, many profound changes. Changes I sought, and changes I never saw coming. I've been knocked down, and I have stood tall. It's been an adventure.
Let the adventure continue.
Namaste.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
As I lay me down to sleep
Namaste.
Om mani padme hum.
Gassho.
A different place
Namaste.
More massaging
(Yes, this is a little freaky. But you know what? I've never, never felt anything like this before. So there it is.)
Namaste.
Love
I want to receive that love, too.
What pours out of me, ultimately, is love. I want that to manifest itself in whatever I do. I fall short, yes. But my intentions are good, and I try my best every time out. And maintain grace and dignity throughout.
It's a lot to do. But I'm up to the task.
Namaste.
Shakespeare
I don't want my words to be fury. I want warmth, smoothness, light.
I also don't want my words to signify nothing. I want them to signify soul, spirit, the heart, and everything good associated with the word namaste.
Namaste.
“Miraculous, powerful, unfathomable reality”
Sixth sense
Deep massage
Pump it up, pump it out
Thank you
Have not/have plenty
All and one
The sky a bird flies in. The wind that keeps a bird aloft.
The water a lotus grows in. The mud a lotus grows out of.
The sun that warms the earth. The blanket to warm a cold body.
This is why it's hard for me to be less. I want to be everything, and no-thing, at once. I'm not about smothering, but nurturing and nourishing.
Namaste