Straining

I'm on a new routine, one that is more "normal"--closer to what most people deal with. Tonight, I'm restless. I don't want to go out, but I don't want to stay inside. So I went for a drive. I have a bundle of energy, and I can't put it where I truly want, so it has to go somewhere. It's a strain, having this ball of mass, ball of stuff, and not being able to do anything with it.